Notes from J When having health issues my pattern is to keep that vulnerability to myself. Having had 2 different admissions to the cardio unit for procedures in the last week, and a return trip to the ER, I’ve been convinced to share my experiences with you who have looked to me for truth and sharing.
The first thing I note is that my assumption that I’m not afraid to die is still pretty accurate. I’m definitely not planning to die. I have too much to live for and too many projects to complete, but I’m not afraid. However, as I saw the quiver in my husband’s chin as he was on the phone explaining to a friend that I was back in the ER, and when I saw my daughter’s tearstreaked face as she put on a brave front, and when I heard my son’s voice of despair that he is half way across the country and could not plump my pillows, I recognized how my passing to the next stage would be terrifying for them. Thinking about leaving them behind is the scariest part.
My few friends who knew about my drama wanted to do something, anything to help, but there was really nothing I would ask them to do. This brings me to my next note, which is to always be willing to ask for healing energy and prayers. Doing so not only helps in the healing process (and I’m a healer, after all, and should not have hesitated to ask), it also gives people an opportunity to participate. I realize now, my desire to “go it alone” was selfish and unfair to my friends, the support my family would have received and myself.
This brings me to the third thing to note. Every day counts. We don’t know what tomorrow or the next day will bring. Yes, I know we’ve all heard this before, but let’s act on this bit of knowledge now.
Right now I’m in full recovery and many of the fears (and even some of the very funny one-liner jokes) are fading. I’m walking, playing, and laughing- and of course, I’m reading. I start new exercise classes next week and have a road trip planned to go to St. Louis for Thanksgiving. I am living life to it’s fullest.
Here is my challenge to you: every day write down one thing that you did or said that makes your life worth living. It could be anything from having fun with family to helping a stranger, or maybe even cleaning out a closet. Maybe life is worth living because you learned something new or taught someone else. Perhaps you made a creative piece of art or music. It could be anything. Every single day there is a reason for you to be alive. Concentrate on that purpose, no matter how small, rather than the negative.
The intention of this exercise is to honor yourself for being here.
Thank you all for being here for me.
Why the deck is called Spirit Guided Tarot
Gordana Curgus and I have decided to name our deck Spirit Guided Tarot. When I read the cards I always call on my guides and the guides of the person for whom I am reading. The words I say, the cards I pull, the meaning of the cards are all gifted to
me by the guides.
Gordana creates the images as a result of the guidance she receives. We each are guided in our own way by Spirit, hence the name, Spirit Guided Tarot.
We believe that the people who use these cards will also be guided to become empowered by the cards and the information that is passed along to them.
Our new card is the World, the last card in the deck. The World card represents the culmination and completion of the lessons learned through the journey of the cards. There is celebration of a job well done and one can now begin the journey again.
In our deck, the woman steps out of the earth, empowered by all she has learned, yet full of compassion. She is both evolved and reinvented by her journey through the cards. One doesn’t doubt her ability to step forward in her knowledge and purpose.
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How fear affects manifesting I have several someones in my life who are amazing at manifesting – when they are feeling happy. If they are depressed or feeling bad they are unable to manifest what they want.
In my readings I often pull a card that refers to the querent’s hopes and fears. Many times we hope to manifest an end, but don’t feel worthy of what we are hoping to manifest. Perhaps you want a loving relationship, but are afraid that you won’t find the relationship or that you are not worthy of receiving a wonderful, kind relationship.
What does one do when faced with that fear or a lack of self-worth?
• Recognize that feeling of lack in yourself.
• Begin to treat yourself as you would your very best friend.
• Determine what you need to change in your life to become worthy. HINT: To become worthy is not to depend on the actions of others. If you are in a relationship that continually batters your self esteem, it is time to get out of that relationship.
• Begin to make a plan to make a change in your life that will remind you that you are worthy.
• Contact me, or another professional. to help you explore these questions and learn how to manifest what you want.
My promise to you
Every time I read for you, perform a healing, perform ceremony, council or mentor I want to help you find your highest potential and I do so by connecting to my guides and to yours (or angels or higher self if you prefer). I give my own opinions (vs. that of the guides) only when so stating. My goal is to help you become more empowered by understanding the beautiful truth of who you are and what your options are. Finally, I protect your confidentiality.